When you married him, you didn't really know, what it means to be married.
Your first time with him in the wedding night was... weird.
He was nice as always, and you were pretty excited when he just touched your pussy for the first time.
It felt like you're an adult now.
And while he tried to be gentle, the actual sex just hurt.
You still don't like it.
But as long as he doesn't treat your body like it was his own all the time, you let him have sex with you at night. It's part of a proper marriage after all.